25/7/12 Where to start?

I have no clue where to start.. it has been so long since my last post.

Although not much has changed, much has also. The main highlight I have had over the past couple months is simply Zoe. Granted we have had some problems here and there, we have managed to work through them. The time we have spent together these past months is just, unforgettable. However, this brings me to this. We have broken up.

I feel we have been torn apart by circumstances rather than a lack of feelings for one another. The thing is I can't imagine my life without her. I decided a while ago that she was the one. I can't give my heart to anyone else because I have already given it to you. As you said we are still young and I know that, I know that I can't offer you anything at this time but that will change and I can assure you that no one would love you as much I do. I would give up anything and everything if you were only to ask. Recently I was struggling to find out what I wanted in life, but now I know... I don't care how long it takes but I want you and only you. You are my life.

It doesn't matter what anyone else thinks, I can't imagine my future without you, however bleak that future is of us together is, it will become a reality.

3/2/12 Lets go!

Remember that gym I mentioned a couple days ago? Well I signed up today. I guess I didn't have a strong desire to sign up straight away but I guess I am happy I did. Signed up with a friend of mine and we scored a slightly lower price. Planning to start gym tomorrow. Need to start looking at my diet and make sure I am eating right. I got about 3 weeks to get into some decent shape... Lets go get started shall we. Maybe I can start a 5 day program... Hmm... Need to start thinking.

Zoe, I thought I dropped a bit of a bombshell on you. Sometimes the line between honest and too honest is a little blurred for me but I felt I had to tell you, and looking back I back I guess it made us much stronger. You are the best thing that has happened to me. Stay with me forever.

7/1/12 Congratulations

A big shout out to my Primary School friend Rufus.

Today... He... Got... Married.

Some may thing he is too young at 22 but I think not, he has his head screwed on right so to speak and I am overjoyed for him. It couldn't happen to a better bloke. His newly wed wife, Annie, is quite a catch. I have only met her once but she left an impression and no doubt in my mind that those two were meant to be together. I wish those two all the success and happiness for the rest of their lives.

Things like this make me think that I am standing still whilst others are moving forward. I know what I have to do and fair idea how to do it. Just need to get off my ass and do the DAMN THING. I need to more forward but as you know you can only do it one step at time. One day I wish my life may be blessed as his.

Forward march... Right, Left, Right....

5/1/12 Lazy Day

Today opened with the promise of so much, the idea of doing so much yet nothing. I didn't do anything I planned or set out to do. Deadlines are coming up, life doesn't stop for those that abuse it. Tomorrow I have to ensure I get everything done, there is so much to do yet so much little time. However, with this said why do we insist on wasting it? I just don't understand sometimes.

Tomorrows To-Do-List
- Try on Suit
- Get Suit dry cleaned
- Buy Gift Card for Friend Wedding
- Make sure all paperwork for Operation done

3/1/12 Barriers

I really wonder about my motivation levels sometimes. All the conviction and motivation I had a couple days ago has almost whittled down to nothing. I need to develop staying power that for sure, got to get the right people in my corner and take it one step at a time. The thing is, I know what needs to be done and I know how to do... I just need to do the DAMN thing. Anything worth doing was never meant to be easy, otherwise everyone would be doing it.

One step, One step.

2/1/12 Hot stuff

Bring on the heat! No, not really... This is too much already. What a stark contast from the Christmas weekend, we had hail the size of billard balls! It was a hot one today, I think they predicted 41 degrees or so. Not that I have checked, I wouldn't be surprised if it actually hit!

When I began to self study my Japanse I was surprised to find to out how much it had dropped since I stopped studying relgiously like I had been doing previously, that will change... like how I intend on posting 'every' single day of 2012 I intend on studying my Japanese every day also. I would love to get to the point where I can travel without any language barriers... Speaking of which I need to work out when I will be resuming my formal lessons again.

In terms of today, I haven't done much thus far. Studied a little more Japanese and grabbed a win in League of Legends and thankfully I have work later on tonight, tonight being 10 PM - 6 AM. Weather should be much cooler and its a public holiday... Got to love extra pay.

1/1/12 New Years

With New Years comes hand in hand with new years resolutions. I for one have made a couple that I will be trying desperately to keep. Without spelling out exactly what they are, they mainly revolve around becoming and trying to be the person I always seen myself as - who I envision myself to be. Never will I be content with what I am doing or what I am, I have to aspire for better. Too long have I been content with what I have and too long have I been content with the flow. Nothing with change. Despite popular belief, success is deliberate not a accidental happening. Only after putting hours and hours into what you pursue will you reap see the benefits, will you see what you sow.

This year will be the year that sets the tone for the rest of life, I will ensure I grasp all opportunities by both hands and do all I can to make the most of them.