31/1/12 Unfit.. totally unfit

Heading down to martial journey to get some training done today... Just found out I am not as fit as I used to be. Will be a while till my body adapts back to the harsh training once again. Did two classes. One bbj class and damn I got smashed by a number of lower belts than me... It really put me in my place and I know I have a lot way to go before I get my technique and feeling back. Immediately after I did a black belt class, rather early for me to doing that but was a bit humbling to figure out how far I have to go to get back to the level I once was.

Conerning my Japan trip, I am wavering without a doubt. Finally got my forms back but I have second thoughts about handing them... Couple reasons why I am rather hesistant and now after talking to my sensei I am even more so. What am I going to do? I want to go but I don't want to go and unless I can clone myself I have to pick one or the other. Heck there's not even a guarantee that I am I going to get in even if I hand them in. I guess I could hand them in and think about ky options at a later date but then again that provides me with another dilemma.. to pay for the trip I must work, hut if I don't go I want to study. What to do. This is rather hard....

23/1/12 Long Day

Happy Chinese New Year!
Got to see a umm dragon or lion bless a shop. You know when the shop puts lettece and money in front of the shop and then the dragon/lion takes it shortly followed by fireworks? Well, it was my first time watching it... rather interesting. Chinese friends laughing at me for being so "white", never seen it before. I guess they have seen it countless times! Sorry I live under a rock... its comfy here. Might go to the city on Sunday to see the chinese festivities in China town.
What a day... not even sure when to begin.

Waking up at 10AM, I scored a win in League of Legends with my good old favourite - Irelia, the Will of the Blades. Still ages behind my mate Kenny... who knows how long it will take to ever catch up to him or whether I can. Only at about 1098 elo and hes at about 1238. Time to play my mains.

Brians big 22nd birthday bash today, really we only went to Galtatic Circus and played some M9 Laser Wars. Must say it wasn't as good as it was last time due to the sheer number of people and their primary joy of camping but in the end I guess I did have fun. Not seeing Brian and Kenny probably added to the night, been so long because of me really, all in all it was worth the late night. I must make a effort to see them more often. Sorry guys, been rather anti-social working for my pending Japan trip. Gosh, I would be devastated if they don't accept me now. Although... at the sometime I wonder if I really do want the trip as much as I wanted it last year... Too much on my mind.

Okay okay, I have been delaying again. Much more has happened. Don't even know how to really say it.

Just out with it I suppose.

I got asked by a girl today if I liked her. To be confronted with such a question is a bit daunting, not even sure if I answered it as well as I could have. I know you are gonig to read this post Prince and I hope you do understand where I am coming from. I have no intention to belittle what you feel for me, please don't take what I say that way. Honestly I do like you a little bit but for me to truly decide on a person it takes me a long time, not everyone is like this but I know I am. Finding out everything about a person doesn't happen over night. Reguardless I feel that we both think differently in what we want and why we want a relationship. I for one am already thinking about marriage (this may be due to my friend recently getting married), a long term relationship that will potentially lead to such a thing is what I truly want. It is worth nothing a couple years ago, such a thought never crossed my mind... I just wanted to be with who I liked and that was enough. We may only be 4 years different in age but these 4 years really are the biggest and most important 4 years of your life that really come to define you as a person. Maybe after this time you will see things the same way I do, only time will tell. I hope you understand  that I am can really only be a friend to you. A friend and a confidant, I will be there if you ever need to talk about anything or speak your mind.

Been a long day for so many reasons. Tomorrow will be long as work starts yet again.

On a brighter note, stitches are out and I should be back to training shortly. Will hit the gym again, lost about 4 kgs of muscle and been feeling weak.

16/1/12 Back to Work.

This T-Shirt says it all.... Been one week from Monday from my operation and like I told work I would go back to work. Contrast to those around me, I feel my leg is just fine and I should have no issues with it. My iPod is set up with a lot of new tracks so I am sure the time will get fly past. Must say I am looking forward to getting a new paycheck that is for sure. My savings has dwinndled since the operation and with no money coming in the past week it has only dropped further. May have to get a second job if I want to make this trip to Japan a reality.

Speaking of which I got the 2nd set of subjects from Kansai Gaidai University approved. Will head to the study abbroad office and hand these forms in. Then I will be able to FINALLY say my Overseas Application is completed.

On another note... Spent a lot of today watching 'The Walking Dead'. Below is the trailer. Perhaps because I have loved the whole Resident Evil franchise since it came out, I am absolutly loving this series. Got the whole generic infection and world taken overrun by zombies thing going for it. I strongly recommend it. For those that don't know, I love http://www.imdb.com and this particular series got rated 8.7.... pretty much a must watch.

Season 1 Trailer

15/1/12 Accomplistment

 

Today started off with a bang. I set my alarm for 10 AM just in case I slept in but I the body decided to wake up at 7 AM, a pleasant surprise, guess the body knows what that I am wasting time and I should get started. Once I woke up I did a light upper body work out consisting of various pushups and lateral raises with 5/10kg dumbbell weights. It was tougher than I thought it would be... after a couple days it should get a little easier. Just trying to fill in the time before I start training again and gym again.

Leg is feeling a little bit tight but otherwise it is feeling rather good. Already been a week after surgery, and the recommended recovery time is roughly 2 week - 1 month.

The rest of the day was doing my washing and ironing it. Still a little new to doing it all myself but it feels good doing simple things like this myself... Got to learn to do it myself if I get accepted into Overseas study!

Onwards to tomorrow.

12/1/12 Another Day

Nothing special to report today, another day wasted today. Spent a majority of the day on League of Legends. To think I had plans for the day, things to do. Alas, more and more excuses. Tomorrow promises to be more productive.

On a lighter note, my leg is finally feeling much better. The swelling has gone down quite a lot and now I am able to walk like a normal person, no need to pretend anymore. Looking at starting a light training program tomorrow for my leg. See how I am feeling tomorrow. Considering it was only minor surgery I hope to be in the swing of things relatively quickly. Might even head down to the dojo tomorrow, been missing those guys tremendously. Simply by being around those people, I feel like anything is possible and nothing is out of reach. Stark contrast to where I am now

11/1/12 Bandages are off.

I took off my outer bandages today. Definitely feel like I have more movement but look at that swelling! Be a while before all that goes down that is for sure. I can walk like a normal person but not really fast at this stage, should be much better tomorrow.

Family day was a little disappointing for reasons I won't mention but hopefully the next family day goes much better.

Today I feel like keeping it short, be in for a good lengthy post tomorrow.

10/1/12 Collect $400 when you pass GO

Was much shorter than I expected, I am already off crutches! Booyah. Although I didn't expect to be on them very long anyway as it was just a minor op. Will most likely return them tomorrow. I am still walking with a limp but I expect that to go tomorrow albeit it will be a while before I am able to run, just restricted to walking in the mean time.

Like I said in my previous post, my niece came over and is staying the night. Ended up breaking out the good old 'Simpsons' Monopoly set. Since it was only two of us, we ended up created some really cool house rules to keep it interesting. Time flew by, hard to believe we ended up playing roughly 4-5 hours all up... Sadly it ended in a draw, she didn't want to trade properties anymore and with in house rules... we only saw the game lasting hours, most likely only ending when we both broke the bank! Fun times. Might have to come up with another house rule to prevent it occurring again. Time to put on the thinking hat!

Tomorrow should be good, rather unexpected but we are in for a family dinner during the week.

9/1/12 All done

 Operation is done and now its time for recovering. Not too sure how long this whole process with take but I know I still have a long grueling road ahead of me. As mentioned in previous posts, one step after a time. Tomorrow I will start with the whole icing and exercises to get leg onto the road to recovery. I could keep on ranting on about my knee but heck I have said it too many times, even I am getting sick of it.

For those that know, I am going to revive ONE BLADE. In the past I attempted to a 30 day challenge, write 500 words (a single chapter) a day. It only lasted roughly 2 weeks but stopped because I felt that the story was lacking direction and I was slightly ashamed of my writing ability. However, with all this time on my hands, I want to put my writing hat back on.

Tomorrow, my niece is coming over to stay the night. Should be fun hanging out, but unfortunately I will have to go back on the whole basketball date due to my current knee state but I am sure we will find something to amuse ourselves with.

8/1/12 D-Day

 

Tomorrow is the big day, I am scheduled in at 8 am and looks like I will be back home at roughly 2 pm. Rather short period of time considering this very operation is keeping me from playing sport. It has been over a year since I have stopped and to be honest I think I have lost part of myself. I am looking forward to getting it back.

4/1/12 Empty Pockets

Today I got woken up by a call from the hospital saying I owe them $1793... or I will. For those that don't know I am had a ACL reconstruction done last year but seems I have to go back in for get some cartiliage fixed. This fee is the out of pocket expenses seeing as I don't have Private Health Insurance. Let me tell you, if I had it, I would have saved a lot of money. Honestly I don't need to get this operation done but to do what I want to do, be who I want to be I need to, there is no way around it... even if it is gonig to hurt my savings.

No doubt my Japan savings is going to take a hit, but hey its not for certain I am even gonig. I will deal with it all when it comes. When there is a will there is a way.