27/2/12 Forgotten, again!

There goes yet another day I didn't post. I guess I can throw my "post everyday for 2012" out the window but hey I have done better than I expected I must say. I will do my best to post as often as I can but then again who am I doing this for? Me. That is right me. This blog is purely to help me think out issues that plague me in my everyday life. Speaking of which, I feel I have lost my way as of late and I know I need to get organized and get back onto the horse or so to speak. I have been using work as an excuse not to do anything and just lay back but with uni right around the corner this something I need to keep organized. If I can't get simple things done now, what am I going to do when I have uni classes and study commitments? Hell if I know if I keep things as they are right now. Seeing an old primary school friend yesterday albeit just for a couple minutes has given me a push in the right direction... now I just need some momentum and I can really get the ball rolling.

Which brings me to my next point. I watch "The Warrior" the ohter night on that family dinner and it really has motivated me to get back into training. I know I have been waiting till my knee got better and it pretty much has but even so I have been using work and the lack of full confidence in it to put it off. Just watching it gave me the rush I haven't had for a while, I need to get back into the game but... its hard with my club being all the way into Point Cook. Even if I go there twice a week I doubt I will see much improvement. Maybe I should consider training a little closer to home... There is some food for thought. What should I ever do?

Current workout progress is below....

Week 4 Progress
Weight: 66 kg
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31/1/12 Unfit.. totally unfit

Heading down to martial journey to get some training done today... Just found out I am not as fit as I used to be. Will be a while till my body adapts back to the harsh training once again. Did two classes. One bbj class and damn I got smashed by a number of lower belts than me... It really put me in my place and I know I have a lot way to go before I get my technique and feeling back. Immediately after I did a black belt class, rather early for me to doing that but was a bit humbling to figure out how far I have to go to get back to the level I once was.

Conerning my Japan trip, I am wavering without a doubt. Finally got my forms back but I have second thoughts about handing them... Couple reasons why I am rather hesistant and now after talking to my sensei I am even more so. What am I going to do? I want to go but I don't want to go and unless I can clone myself I have to pick one or the other. Heck there's not even a guarantee that I am I going to get in even if I hand them in. I guess I could hand them in and think about ky options at a later date but then again that provides me with another dilemma.. to pay for the trip I must work, hut if I don't go I want to study. What to do. This is rather hard....

28/1/12 First day

First session back in a very long time, long time being a year and a half. Who knew it would have thought it would be so long. It was a nice feeling going back onto the mat for the first time. Like I had always done in the past I went in guns blazing and did everything I could to the best of my ability. So much for taking it easy eh? I paid the price at the 2nd half of the session. My leg, that is what. No, No, I didn't injure it again or anything for that matter but I just found out how weak it is. I have to strengthen it up. It just weak and had some slight discomfort when I was holding my stances at the later part of the lesson. In the end it was a good session, I had fun. The night finished with me rolling with my instructor for a good 2 hours.... surprised how much I had forgotten, lost a lost of technique - just played possum most of the time. Although I did land a nice choke and arm bar but my lack of training left me unable to finish them, at a loss as to how to increase my leverage. Back to the mats. So much for looking at Victorian Champs at the end of March. Need to do some

On another note, feel my relationship with Z has gone up leaps and bounds. A little afraid I dumped too much on her, I hope not though. Despite everything, no matter what I do, she is the only thing on my mind. Obsessive much? Comes back Feb 21st, I really can't wait.

27/2/23 Step 1

I am on my way Z. Hope you know that. You will find me and changed when we first meet. I sincernly hope I live up to any expections you have of me and don't disappoint - been rather good at that. Next week going to join the gym again and hit the weights. Might look into getting into swimming also.Tonight is my first training session oh how excited I am but... Z your the only thing on my mind at the moment. Hard to believe I have been waiting for this day for over a year but all I think about is you. Can't wait till you get back.

26/1/12 Interesting couple days

It doesn't take much for everything to change, perspective... thoughts... feelings. Very interested to see where everything is going to lead. Sigh, have to wait 1 month. End of February. Got some time to better myself and get my head on straight. Waiting eagerly in complete anticipation for everything to come.

Tomorrow I skipped out on work so I could go training in Point Cook. Time to see my family once more. Interested to see how much I have lost physically and in technique. I know I lost 4 kg in muscle and I am eager to put that back on.

15/1/12 Accomplistment

 

Today started off with a bang. I set my alarm for 10 AM just in case I slept in but I the body decided to wake up at 7 AM, a pleasant surprise, guess the body knows what that I am wasting time and I should get started. Once I woke up I did a light upper body work out consisting of various pushups and lateral raises with 5/10kg dumbbell weights. It was tougher than I thought it would be... after a couple days it should get a little easier. Just trying to fill in the time before I start training again and gym again.

Leg is feeling a little bit tight but otherwise it is feeling rather good. Already been a week after surgery, and the recommended recovery time is roughly 2 week - 1 month.

The rest of the day was doing my washing and ironing it. Still a little new to doing it all myself but it feels good doing simple things like this myself... Got to learn to do it myself if I get accepted into Overseas study!

Onwards to tomorrow.