30/3/12 Realisation

I am a SELFISH person.

14/3/12 Fixed

Car finally had its minor service today although I was a little silly and forgot to leave the service book on the passenger seat so.. as a result it wasn't signed! Serves me right for putting in another place other than the dashboard drawer. No matter, I still got the receipt and I figure they will be able to just sign it in a matter of months.. it shouldn't be too much of an issue.

I have a feeling I will fork out for a parking permit tomorrow for university... I figure I will be studying there for all 3 trimesters therefore it would be advisable I get one a.s.a.p to get the most value out of it I can possible get. On another note I probably will be purchasing my textbooks or at least consider it tomorrow also. Why is everything so expensive?... If only I could get a job that I pays me for doing nothing.. or as they say... If I do what I love then I will never work a day of my life.

13/3/12 Finally

I had that long awaited to the Dermatologist, I saw a different doctor to the one to the one I have been seeing purely so that I would been earlier. Seems like she did have some genuine concern and that she had a great idea of how to treat it. Basically after a long explanation, I have been given some cream for eczema and been told to avoid soaps and what not... in fact I have a list of things to avoid.

Really need to get on the ball with my uni work though, tomorrow I plan to pick up my permit and all the textbooks I need.

12/3/12 The best

That was a definitely an unforgettable weekend. The time I spent with Zoe this weekend really did reaffirm all the feelings I had for her and in my mind confirm that we are going to be together, for what I hope, to be forever. Tomorrow I will post a more detailed post about what we actually did and what we did see. However, photos will be a little while as Zoe took them all with her camera... I will get them soon enough. Considering making a scrapbook or at least photo album, but I will have to see.

9/3/12 Preparations

Tomorrow, tomorrow, my awesome weekend begins.I am really excited, get to spend the next couple days with Zoe with absolutely no distractions. Spent a bit of the day trying to organise where I am going and get a few last minute things that we might need, as well as packing all my gear.

In terms of plans not a whole lot is set in stone. We are heading to a place just South West of Melbourne called Mornington Peninsula, there is some life size hedge mazes we are going to check out and there is a hotel booked already. The next day we have a booking at a nearby hot springs. In terms of everything else, we are going to just see whats there and quite literally see where the road takes us. Usually I plan and plan and plan to get everything down organized to a T but this time I think I am just trying to go with the flow. However, I will write up a list of possible destinations just in case we are looking for something specific to do or see. It will no doubt be a unforgettable weekend.

8/3/12 Happy B-day to ME

There we have it, another year gone. Hey... look I am 22 years old. Its hard to believe another year has just flown past. It has been a year of seemingly bad decisions but they have all come and gone. There is no need to dwell on the past. Forward is where I am looking and it should be the only place I should be looking. What I want to do with myself, where I see myself, and most importantly the steps I need to take to ensure that I get there.

I was the smartest person in the world and signed up for work on my birthday, meaning I was working for the first 6 hours of this glorious day BUT I pulled through because I knew after it was done I was going to have breakfast with Zoe. Rocked up for barely 2 hours with Mc Donalds in hand but you know what it was worth it. What ever little time I spend with Zoe is just wow, she is it. There will never be anyone else that makes me feel that way I do about her. Everyday I will strive to make myself a better person for you... because its what you deserve. Oh yes, that jacket you got me is just smashing. It was completely unexpected. Its so good, I am scared to wear it! I will be sure to take great care of it, count my word on it.

After a sad parting I had uni for a couple hours and literally crashed at home... I worked it out and I had been running for a good 18 hours without sleep. Some birthday effort right? Yeah I think so too. It wasn't over then... after a quick nap it was a family dinner and it was lovely. Had a yummy home cooked chocolate cake as well as crispy roast pork, chicken wings with fried rice. Take a look below.. Yummy huh?

I know myself better than anyone else and I know I hide how I truly feel sometimes, there have been times where I just feel down and regret some of the things I have done or the opportunities I have neglected to grab... but as I just mentioned there is no need to look back, only forward. For this year I refuse to let myself feel down and out, this type of thinking is counter productive, I will simply just dust myself off and get back up. It is the way it needs to be and its the way it should be. I have spent so much time coming up with excuses to put things off but no more, this marks my year of change. This year I will do what I can to be that person inside, the person I always wished myself to me.

 

So ends a great day, I am looking forward to my weekend more than you could imagine

7/3/12 No gym time

It got to today till I realized that having commitments is hard especially if you have these commitments with a friend also. It was so easy during the holidays when both of us had no plans, nothing to worry about but since then... he started work and I started school again. Either we have to work around it or we won't go... the last has proved true lately. I know for sure that myself, that I am not where I need to be and I really want to get there but am I all talk? I sincerely hope not. I know what I need to do and, as I have said before, I just need to get out there and do the damn thing.

On a completely other note... Big shout out to my girl ZOE...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

Sadly I couldn't be with you today but as you know our weekend will be something very special. I will do everything I can to make it as perfect as possible. How can you be in my thoughts all the time I just don't understand it. Every time we are apart, I just have you in my mind... all I want is you. All the time... now and forever.

6/3/12 Home Cooked Meal

Was a rather interesting day. Had me first day back at university and it was kind of cool. Ran into a old friend from last semester in one of my new classes. We wasted no time in getting together as a group for an upcoming assignment. Grouped up with 4 others as it was a big assignment worth 40% of our final grade, got all our e-mails, contract details and I have set up a Facebook group page to give us a easier method of communication.

Zoe. Zoe. Zoe.

It is her birthday tomorrow but I had a feeling that I wouldn't be able to spend much time with her on her special day... so I decided to come over for dinner and spend a couple hours with her. Gosh I am so happy I did. She cooked a absolutely lovely home cooked meal. She is much better than I thought she was... full of so many surprises.  Look at this meal... I am looking forward to eating her meals in the future.. Maybe I will be able to cook for her myself one day?

I must say I am so happy she was pleased with her gift. Like I mentioned in an earlier post she moved into a new place and I knew, just knew she needed something like a vacuum cleaner heck she even mentioned it to me. Of course the apartment is too small to warrant getting a big one so I picked out a nice handheld one... with 18V I have no doubts it will get the job done. Just hope she will love her Christmas present... Already got one in mind. Am I thinking too far ahead?

One question I keep asking myself is how is something like her with someone like me? Am I worthy of such a person? She hopes so... and for that I am extremely grateful... I will do everything I can to make her as happy as I can and convince myself that I am deserving of such a person.

5/3/12 And so it begins

Another chapter closed and another one begins. What I am talking about is that my holidays have finished and yes that means my university semester has begun once again. Both excited and nervous. I have been rather slack in the studying department and I need to rectify that! I do have motivation now, and I am sure she will help me study... Won't she? As I keep saying I need to get my act and get organized. Lets go, 3 HDs this semester.

Gym training has been a little bit difficult as of late but time commitments and what not but I am still trucking along. I have a goal in mind and I know what I have to do. Just a matter of time till i get there.

Current workout progress is below....

Week 5 Progress
Weight: 66.5 kg
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2/3/12 Rainy day

Like the t-shirt says, I know I am crying over something rather unimportant and I know there are people out there having a far worse time that myself. For this reason I really complain about anything, just think there are people in other countries heck even this country that are lacking the basic necessities of life that we all just take for granted yet we have the nerve to complain at the most unimportant things. With all this said, I have just felt today is just one bad thing after another, everything just seems to be suffocating me. Even on this blog I don't feel entirely comfortable writing about these particular issues that have plagued my day... but things can only go so wrong before they turn the other way right?

Well I am just hanging out till that happens. Tomorrow will be my day... maybe.